Currently Listening to : B.o.B – Nothing on You (ft. Bruno Mars)
Waddup world. I feel like you haven’t heard from me in awhile… just wanted to make sure that you knew I was alive.
A couple of things, but as a warning… this post will be introspective
I know I haven’t been blogging too much, which is sort of disastrous because of how important writing is supposed to be to me. I do have these little intricate thoughts I’d like to get out, but I can’t seem to put them in the moleskin or out here in digital form. It’s not like life’s been interesting, quite the opposite actually but I suppose sometimes you just forget.
It’s finals week, which means I use my time inefficiently, think about things a little too much, cut myself off from the world, and just snack like no other. But to touch on what I’ve been thinking about, I have some really good people in my life and hanging out with these people makes me miss the other people that have been so inspirational and pivotal in said life. So if any TAF’ers and Plan C’ers (FM, Christina, Diana, Eric… just to name a few) are reading this, give me a call. It would make my week.
Also, I ‘ve been crushing on this girl for MONTHS, and there are complications for why I can’t do anything about it.. (mostly because she said she doesn’t believe in relationships for freshman and I wanted to respect that, she’s an Asian freshman at CMC and there’s definitely an unwritten APAM rule against it (I put it down myself), and I’m just stupid ( mostly because I didn’t tell her/didn’t ask her out)) but its one of those things — and I do this all the time — where you keep playing silly scenarios over and over again in your head and it magically works out in your head. Anyway,something just clicked today and being the jealous type (despite having no real relationship whatsoever), I noticed some things and just felt sick, probably about something inconsequential and stupid, and it sort of just died. It was kind of nice… like this burden (and yes, if you’ve talked to me within the last two months you would know it was a terrible burden) was just lifted. I feel like it’s the beginning of the end. BUT!… knowing me, I’ll probably throw myself back into it and hate myself again. Thank goodness break is coming.
I just ordered FIFA10 for 45 bucks (thanks Elijah), got two pairs of kicks (Black/Black/White Delta Force AC high and White Air Infiltrator Mids.. no strap), and am looking for a cheap pair of low AF1’s on ebay. I’m spending money as if it were coming with the rain, but I really should stop. If you see me buying something, you have the go ahead to slap me… unless I’m getting AF1’s for less than 40$.
Back to studying Psych…
The motivation for me is them telling me what I could not be…
